Thursday, December 9, 2010

Laughter and Tears

As I have been slowly remembering who I am and what I am, I have noticed that laughter and tears are returning in copious amounts. Now before you advise me to start taking those little funny pills or talking to those nice gentleman in sterile white coats, please be advised that the outbreaks in emotion are appropriate. I laugh when things are funny, amusing, joyful, and when something, or someone, causes the corners of my heart to tilt up; I cry when things are sad, distressing, awful, and when something, or someone, causes the corners of my heart to tilt down. (Okay, sometimes I cry for the same reasons I laugh....) It's a simple response, but a response that can have powerful repercussions.

For the first time since birth, I feel no pressure from outside sources to feel this way or feel that way. I feel as I am intended "to feel." There have been other brief periods in my life when I have "allowed" this to happen, but for the most part, I have held back. In fact, I became quite good at holding back, and perhaps that is why there is such intensity to these new emotions.


I delight in both the laughter and the tears.